jittery excitement
Feeling kinda jittery as I get nearer to the completion of a long-standing project. It's been a long ride with this one, lots of twists and turns which has led me to explore more about myself and my creative practice. Lots of confrontation with the limitations brought by the disabled body. Clarifications on the things I definitely enjoy doing, and things I'd rather not do. The pleasures of animation work, and also I'd really like to be paid more fairly for the work that I pour into my craft.
This jittery feeling is both anxiety and excitement rolled into one: that feeling of being so much closer to the end point than the starting point. That feeling of "is it finally happening?" Simmering thoughts on "how will others receive this creation?" And also: "what's next?"
It's a good idea to rest, and I SHOULD, once I've closed this project. But yeah, I miss my regular drawing practice, which has taken a bit of a backseat for the time being, so I can focus more on closing this project. I've also been squeezing some time for getting back into animating on Blender, and I'll write more about this later, and that's part of the path that I'll be exploring after this one. So I'm both jittery excited about the end of this project, AND for the things that are coming ahead in my creative practice.
I know I'm being kinda vague here on purpose, but I look forward to writing more about all of these things once the project's released out onto the world!